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Christmas Just isn’t the same anymore now That me And my brother are grown up! :/

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Sometimes I wish I could say what I truely feel, but I know if I do it will ruin everything. :/

Needs To get these negative thoughts out of my mind… :/

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what sucks the most is that i still love you..

what sucks the most is the last time we hung out a month ago we talked about getting back together..

what suck the most is your the one that could always calm me down when i am upset..

what sucks the most your hugs always made me happy..

what sucks the most you were my first everything..

your the one that showed me i can be loved by a guy..

your the one that talked me into meeting my dad for the first time..

you talked him into coming to see me..

you made my senior year the best year of my life..

 you are the one that took us fishing for the first time..

you are the one that i felt the most comfortable in your arms..

your are the one that wrote me the poem to ask me out to prom..

you made me love theater..

your the one that stayed with me when my brother got in trouble at school..

your the one that was there every winterguard practice..

your the one that told me to just listen to your heart and not what others think..

you are the one that broke me out of my shell..

you are the one that i will always want to vent to..

your driveway has the best star gazing spot..

your the first guy that really touched my heart..

what sucks is everytime lately when i am upset i scroll through my phone and look for you number to text. i get to it and then realize if i text you wont text back.

what sucks the most is i cant be at that hospital with your family and be there for you like you were always there for me..

what sucks the most is i wont ever be able to get those amazing hugs that you have.. they were honestly the best ever..

what sucks the most is i regret so much that last year when i stayed away from you and told you i hated you and never wanted to talk to you again.

what sucks the most i still have your birthday card laying on my dresser..

what sucks the most your chest was the best to lay on and fall asleep. you just made me so comfortalble no matter what the situation was..

what sucks the most is this is the song that made me fall for you..

what sucks the most is in a few days you may leave this earth. i dont know how i am going to handle it. right now just thinking about it is tearing me up. i really wish this never happened. i really wish we never split. you always said we were made for each other and i have ALWAYS still thought that. i love you erik. i really do with all my heart. that will never change. please please please dont leave us… :(

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